Less angst, I'm getting too old for this shit.

Firstly, thanks for the nice comments on yesterday's post. Sorry to get all angst-y and complain-y and annoying, but sometimes, I need an outlet. This is why normal people have best friends.

Maggie asked to be facebook friends in the comments yesterday, and I accept. I would love to be facebook friends with you, thanks :) I've really enjoyed reading all the other BEDA blogs out there. It makes me feel like I'm a part of something, and recently, well, for a long time, I haven't felt like I belonged anywhere.

Anyways, I was asked on Tuesday's post by Nick who my favorite youtuber was and why. This makes me want to tell the story of how I got into youtube. I feel that it's a story very similar to almost everyone else's story, but I'm telling it anyway.

One September day in 2008, my friend Jen sent me a youtube link in an AIM message saying: You love Harry Potter, you'll love this. I spent the next 4 days watching every single VlogBrother video up to that point. From John and Hank started to watch the 5 awesome Girls and Guys and officially became a part of Nerdfighteria. Through watching both 5AG's I started watching videos by people they recommended and found the person that I have to say makes my favorite videos. That person is JustMargaret. I LOVE her. She's funny and nerdy and reminds me of someone that I would be friends with in real life. So if I had to pick a favorite person on the Tubes, it's Margaret.

In completely unrelated news, Emma Watson, who plays Hermione in the Harry Potter movies, cut all her hair off, and apparently, its a HUGE deal on Tumblr.

Everyone else in the HP cast is changing their hair, but OMG the girl did it, life has ended. For the record, I think it looks nice Emma. Some girls can't pull off short hair, and I think she does it wonderfully. It's a big change from Hermione, which, honestly is the best thing she can do right now.

And the fact that Joey Richter, who plays Ron in the Musical, looks like Chip Skylark from the Fairly Odd Parents and MAY be putting together a Youtube Video in which he sings "My Shiny Teeth and Me." I will keep you all updated on that awesome piece of news, because, frankly, I'm far too excited about it.

This is Chip Skylark, in case you didn't know.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY

Today is awesome because of you guys reading this blog. It felt nice to have people I don't know say "Hey it's going to be okay, chin up." I makes me feel like a person again. Thank you guys, really

Books Read 35

Currently Reading: 20 Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler 

I hate living here

It should be noted, that I live with my parents. I hate being here. I hate being around them, I always have, as long as I can remember. I don't want to live here, but seeing as I can't get a job, and I have no friends, I can't live anywhere else. The only thing I had to talk to, was my cat Neville, and he ran away, or died, or something. I haven't seen him since Friday.

Anyway, I want to spend the smallest amount of time possible around my parents. So, needless to say, I spend a lot of time in my room on the computer or reading. Since I have no actual people friends, I drown myself worlds that only exist inside other people's imagination.

Today I was eating dinner and my mom walks into the room, sees me and throws a newspaper at me, and says: Read this there's an article about how one of the restaurant in town lost it's liquor licence because of the accident. I put the paper down on the table because I have no interest in the subject and she freaks out and asks me what my problem is.

The accident, happened about a year and a half ago, a kid I went to middle school with was killed whilst driving too fast after drinking too much. I live in a small town, it was all anyone talked about for, like, a year. And my mom doesn't get that it bothers me when she talks about it like it's just some person I didn't know. But it is a person I knew, it's a person that shows up in the "People you may know" section of my facebook all the time. A person I spent seven years of my life with every week day between September and June. He was the first person my own age that I knew to die. She just doesn't get that. I don't want to read news paper articles about it, I don't want to drive down the road to see the new memorial. I don't want to listen to people talk about it all the time. And she doesn't fucking get it.

Yes, it was a year and a half ago. No, I'm not over it. No, he wasn't my friend. No, I didn't even like him all that much. Yes, the last time I saw him he waved to me and I hid behind my now former best friend. But whatever, stop talking about it like I'm not supposed to care anymore. Because I do, and I always will.  

I'm sick of being told I'm lazy and doing nothing. I'm sick of being told I'm not good enough, or smart enough to do things. I'm sick of living with a group of people I can't stand. I want to get out of here. I hate when I'm told I'm not trying hard enough to get a job, because, seriously, no one wants a job more than I do. I want to get out of here and never look back.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY

I'll answer the questions that were left on Yesterday's post tomorrow.

Questions Answered

I shall now answer  your burning questions.

Rachel asked what kind of music I listen to, which is probably the hardest question I will ever have to answer. In truth, there isn't really a genre that I listen to more than others, well, maybe Wizard Rock, according to Itunes that is the genre that I have the most songs of, but I listen to a lot of everything. My favorite band is The Who, I've loved them forever, but I also really love Stephen Kellogg and the Sixers and Motion City Soundtrack. These three bands are completely different and in no way interconnected. The music that I listen can vary daily. I think it has something to do with the time we live in. With the access to the Internet and all different kinds of music and artists its hard to really pick one that you like more than anything.

I hope that makes sense.

Hannah and Vita both commented on how in my bio it says "I make Harry Potter references at inappropriate times." This steams from most of my sophomore year of college when I decided that EVERYTHING could, in fact be made into a HP reference. I do, however, agree with you, there is NO wrong time to make a Harry Potter reference, and with the musicals, it makes it SO much easier, everything is now a Harry Potter reference and I love it.

In the novel I'm writing I have a character that outwardly seems like, basically, a moron, but she has some of the more important "lines" in the book; the ones that change the course of the story or bring out a plot point. I am determined to make every single one of these thing a Harry Potter related sentence.

I loved that people actually asked questions!! This is why I love BEDA its such a great blogging community. I'm really enjoying reading everyone's blogs, and I hope that I'm at least a little bit entertaining. Again, if anyone has any questions about anything, me, life, quantum physics, leave them in the comments and I'll do my best to answer them tomorrow.

I am now off to the weekly Improv show that I go to. I'll tell ya'll about it tomorrow, hopefully I'll have pictures.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY
Today is awesome because Tuesday = Jake Ryan day :)

books read 35
currently reading: 20 Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler

A day late, but hey, you should know who I am

I was reading a bunch of the BEDA/ Blaugust posts that my fellow bloggers wrote yesterday, and I feel that I should introduce myself to anyone who has never read my blog before.

I am Deanna, I'm 23 and a HUGE nerd. Most of the Nerdyness revolves around Harry Potter.

I'm trying to become a writer, I'm really working on it. I'm like 98% done the first draft of a novel I've been writing for a while now. There's maybe, like, two, possibly three, chapters that I need to write. I just can't seen to get it.

I LOVE Maureen Johnson, not just for her books but for the person that she is; on twitter anyway. It gives me hope that I'm not too weird to exist, as some people that I have somehow managed to be best friends with in my life has suggested.

I have a huge crush on a person that I will refer to as Jake Ryan in this blog, because I love 80's movies. Unlike the real Jake Ryan, he knows I exist, I just don't really think he cares all that much.

This is my Desktop Wallpaper:


What else... umm, I'm a Gryffindor. I like to speak in code names, but I really don't hang out with enough people in the course of my life to list them.

If there is anything else you, people of BEDA would like to know, ask away! I'll answer any questions either in the comments on Tomorrow.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY
(oh, I'll explain this. I'm a fan of John Irving novels, I mean, what 23 year old girl isn't! JKs no other 23 year old girl is. Anyway in A Widow For One Year, there is a guy that writes children's books, and that's how all of them end. So I've been ending my blogs with "And that is the end of the story since 2004, when I first read it. It's in ALL CAPS because of another John Irving Novel: A Prayer for Owen Meany.)

Today is awesome because I think it's raining, it hasn't rained in, like FOREVER, and rain may make my cat come back.

Books Read in 2010: 35
Currently Reading: 20 boy summer by sarah ockler

Blaugust

Welcome to what I'm going to call "Blaugust," a term I stole from one of my friends because I thought it was funny.

Honestly, my life isn't that exciting, and recently I've been in this weird uncreative rut. It sucks. I want to blame Harry Potter, and A Very Potter Sequel, but I honestly can't. The rut started before the Sequel debuted on YouTube. I haven't really read anything either, which is weird for me. I'm ALWAYS reading.

I'm currently downloading AVPM off YouTube, I downloaded the Sequel earlier, the first one is giving me some serious issues. I honestly hope my life gets more interesting so I have something to actually, you know, blog about. I'm fully committed to Blogging Every Day in August. I just hope that there are few days like this one, and lots where I have things to say.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY
Today is awesome because I learned how to rip youtube videos which is Probably illegal, but whatever.

Books read 35

Why I *still* love Harry Potter

Last night was the YouTube premiere of A Very Potter Sequel, the sequel to last year's YouTube sensation, A Very Potter Musical. I, of course, watched it. AVPM changed and defined the fandom, much the way that Wizard Rock did.

If you don't know, AVPM is a parody of the books done excellently. It's a group of college kids in a theater group, and this people are amazing. It was written by the kid that plays Harry in the play, it's just, just, totally awesome. If you love Harry Potter, the is a decent chance that you will like it. It changes the way you see Harry Potter, and just displays the power of the fandom.

AVPM and AVPS they just do something to the story, enhance it, improve it if that's at all possible. Knowing that it's fan made matteral makes it all the much better. They take characters we know so well, Harry, Ron, Voldemort, Snape, Cedric, Quirrel, Draco, Dumbledore, and in the new one Lupin, and Sirus, and change them, in a good way. After watching the plays, you'll never see them the same, never think of Hufflepuff without having the hard to control urge to yell "FIND!" In re-reading the books this spring I didn't see the Ralph Fiennes Voldemort, I see the Joe Walker Voldemort. It's that fucking awesome.

At the end of the play, Harry Potter says this, and honestly, I may have cried a little: "They’re gonna try and tell me that this wasn’t real and that this didn’t happen. You know what, it was real and it did happen. We spent time here, we made friends here, and that’s a part of us. ‘Cause Hogwarts is bigger than any of us, it’s bigger than any of its founders, and it’s gonna be here long after we’re gone. Maybe we’ll see our kids come here one day. That’s the thing about Hogwarts—no matter how long you’re away from it, well, there’s always a way back.”

THAT is why I love Harry Potter. This is what Harry Potter is. This is why I love Harry Potter, because it is real. It's real to us. the last book came out three years ago this week. The last movie comes out a year from now, but that doesn't mean its the end. JK Rowling has created something that lives outside the covers of her books. She created a world that is better because she wrote a book. We, as the the fans, have taken what Harry has given us and turned it into art, and music, and charity organizations.

I glad I get to be a part of it.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY

If I Stay by Gayle Forman

Honestly, I'm probably the worst reviewer of things ever. I mean people ask me what kind of music I like and I say something like "I don't really know." Because that's true, but when I find a band or a song I really like I can't tell people about it because I can't wrap my head around how amazing it was and have it make sense, it comes out something like "It's kinda like the Killers, only completely different and with more cymbals." Because that, is a review.

I was horrible at Book Reports too. I remember one I did in 8th grade on Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, which BTW is my favorite of the series, and I, like, failed, because I'm bad at summerizing.

This has a point, I promise.

Recently, by recently I mean like, a minute ago, I finished a book I think anyone reading this blog should pick up, or borrow from me. It's called "If I Stay" by Gayle Forman. It's a about a seventeen year old girl named Mia, who is in a HORRIBLE CAR ACCIDENT in the second chapter of the book which kills her parents, her little brother is also in the car. I feel that this should be emphasized since it isn't on the back cover, and it's sort of a mystery how this girl ends up in a comma, but HORRIFIC CAR ACCIDENT. This made me want to stop reading. I mean it's been a year and a half, but still reading about seeing brain matter on the road and knowing  what happened that December night, was still a lot hard to handle.

Once I pick the book back up again and got past the crying in a public park in front of people for a fictional family, I got to the core of the book which is this girl, watching herself in a coma, deciding whether she should stay and fight and live in this world, or go join her family.

It chonicals her time in the coma as well as her life before the accident, and how these are reasons she should stay, or reasons she should go. It's powerful.

It's beautifully written, every word of it. It does say on the cover "Will appeal to fans of Twilight" but when I first saw it, it was still in hard cover and didn't say that, and I didn't notice until I got home, but anyway, there are no CREEPY VAMPIRES or NOT REALLY BUT THANKS FOR TRYING WEREWOLVES. It's not really fantasy, but kind I guess, I don't see it as fantasy because I view fantasy as the kind of book like Harry Potter or Twilight or something with far off lands and stuff. This is more surreal. But it is really amazing.

I know I'm, like, the WORST reviewist in the world, but I hope that explains why it's awesome. It's one of those books that makes you want to write like that, like reading a Sarah Dessen book. It's heartfelt and real, and most importantly, unlike Twilight, well written.

I hope that what I just wrote makes some kind of sense and maybe persades someone to read it, I hope it does. I really enjoyed it. In the books I've read this year I've only said "WAIT STOP THE PRESSES THIS BOOK IS FREAKING AWESOME twice, and I've read some AMAZING literature this year. I hope that says something as well. I mean, I want, like, my opinion to mean something.

AND THAT IS THE END OF THE STORY
Today is awesome because, well the weather was wonderful, and I read a wonderful book

Books read: 35
Since my last blog I have read: The Hunger Games, Catching Fire - both by Suzanne Collins and If I Stay by Gayle Forman