Friday, December 31, 2010

My resolutions.

As, here anyway, it's 12 hours until 2011, I felt I should post to the internet what my hopes and dreams are for the upcoming year. 2010 wasn't exactly anything special, or really even that good. I mean, I met some really awesome people, but I really didn't do anything fantastic or even a little bit interesting. I want to do something. I want to accomplish something. So here is my list.

  • Lose weight. I've hated the way I look for a long time. I just have to start doing something about it. I mean, no one can love me until I love myself right? I better start taking the steps to be there. I'm tired of complaining but not doing anything about it.
  • Get a real job. I mean, one that has anything to do with the degree I spent four years of my life working for. Don't get my wrong, I love the people I work with at WalMart, I almost like my job, but I've been cashiering my whole working life making shit for money. I want a real job, I need a real job.
  • Move Out!  The apartment with my work friend, isn't going to work unless I have a real job. I can't afford to eat, drive to work, and pay rent on what I make now. I can't have one without the other, and I do not want to be 25 and still living with my parents. I need to get out of here.
  • Write more. I want to have my novel edited by March, but I doubt that's going to happen, so I'm giving myself the deadline of June 1. I want the second draft to be written and happy by the end of 2011. I want to have something to show for my time spent doing nothing on the computer.
    • This includes blogging more. The people that read and respond to this blog and the blogs I read, the people I met this August, I consider you guys amongst  my closest friends, seriously. I just want to hang out with you more.
  • Do something about this Jake Ryan situation, *eye roll* because that hasn't been on my to do list since 2004.
  • Go to Wisconsin to see Deathly Hallows with Casey. Sounds silly, but I really just want to see Harry Potter with someone who loves it as much as I do. I would like it to be the midnight premiere, but I have to work around the schedule of an Improv troupe. You don't understand, Stranger Than Fiction is more important than anything. 
  • During this Epic trip to Wisconsin if I drive: Stop and meet/ hang out with Thursday and Friday of Nerds^5.
  • Do everything I can to meet Tuesday. I mean, she lives the furthest away, and not anywhere along to road that leads to Wisconsin. I will meet her. I will.
  • Complete the 50 book challenge. I should have done it this year. I really should have. 
  • Be happy. Be productive. Be a better person. 
Today is awesome because, if everything goes right, I'll be watching Disney movies with my friends come midnight. If it doesn't, I'll be watching Disney movies by myself at midnight. Either way: DISNEY MOVIES.

Books read: 39 
Currently reading: The Book Thief (gotta finish this by midnight!)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Book Blog part 3

Part 3 of my book blog. I hope I can get someone to pick up one of these books. ALSO if you have any recommendations for next years challenge, send them my way. I LOVE reading books that other people love. 
A Prayer of Owen Meany – John Irving
I’ve read this book 6 times now. It changed my life once, and I keep reading it to remind me of what Owen Meany means to me, what Owen Meany did for me. When I’m feeling lost or sad I re-read Owen Meany. I literally carry a copy with me everywhere. This book means more to me that I can explain. It’s kind of religious by kind of I mean a lot, and the opening chapter is the most boring chapter you will ever read in your life (it’s a lot of historical information and stuff like that mixed in with the story) but if you can get though that, read this book.

If I Stay – Gayle Forman
After I read this book I stopped reading for a week or so because I didn’t think that anything could be better than this book. It deals with death and what if you could make the choice to stay here living even though you’ve lost everything or die and be with the ones you love. It’s heart breaking, and really keeps  you guessing as to what the narrator will decide until the last page.

Twenty Boy Summer – Sarah Ockler
I knew after reading the back of this book that it wasn’t going to be one of those silly romance teen books like it sounds. It was really heart wrenching at points. One review on the back cover says “It tears you heart out then sews you back up again.” I think it’s missing the “And then rips it out again and stomps on it for a minute before giving you the healing moment. It is a love story, but also a death story and friendship story.

Skinny – Ibi Kaslik
I wasn’t as pleased with this book as I wanted to be. I’ve read several books dealing with eating disorders in the past and this one didn’t really live up the others. I’ve wanted to read it for a while and I really wanted it to be, like, the most amazing book ever. Maybe I just set my sights to high, but I wasn’t really thrilled with this book.

The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, and Mockingjay – Suzanne Collins
The Hunger Games Trilogy is excellent. If you haven’t read it, read it. It’s not about who Katniss loves but about what Katniss does, it’s great to see a young adult fiction series that deals with everything the Hunger Games deals with , wonderfully written. Highly HIGHLY recommend.

The Book Thief –Markus Zusak 
              I'm still reading this, but unless Mr. Zusak's head exploded two thirds of the way through this                       book, it will be one of my favorites of all time

Book Blog part 2

Part Two of my "Books I read this year" collection.
 13 Reasons Why – Jay Asher
Being someone who has been where the main character was, obviously I didn’t kill myself like she did, but you know, this book spoke so much to me. I don’t think I stopped crying the whole time I read this book. It was wonderful, skillfully written, excellent, excellent story telling. Jay Asher captured those moments, those hard horrible moments so wonderfully. If you’ve ever been depressed or suicidal, or know someone who has, read this book. Honestly this book is the best one I read all year. I can’t say enough about it. Read it.

 Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac - Gabrielle Zevin
I read this one because my roommate read it and said “You’re a writer, something is wrong with this book. What is it?” I think it was a rushed story, it could have been more developed and the ending was weird. The story, oh the story is wonderful, but there could have been a lot more done with it. I think.

Good in Bed - Jennifer Weiner
I picked this one up because I ran out of books to read, and I picked a good one. It’s not about what you’d think by the title. It’s about an overweight lady and who I believe just turned or is about to turn 30 and she broke up with the guy she thought she was going to marry then finds out she’s pregnant, but there is so much more, that the basics really. It’s deep and emotional. If you’re looking for a grown up book to read, I recommend this one. I don’t read much “regular adult fiction” but if they were all like this book, I would read more of it.

 PS I Love You - Cecelia Ahern
If you’ve seen the movie, but not read the book, you are MISSING OUT. After reading the book, the movie sucked, like, sucked, and I know a lot of people who love that movie. I’m also one of those books are better people anyway, so yeah. The book is so much awesomer though, it more in depth and you cry more, and it’s really great. I like books that make me cry, what I can say. I’m not a big romance reader, but this love story, genius, A+

 Will Grayson, Will Grayson – John Green and David Levithan
John Green, David Levithan, Will Grayson. will grayson. Let’s just say I appreciate the hell out of Tiny Cooper. Nuff said.

 Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, and Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by JK Rowling
This was the 2nd time I’d read the series all the way through. The first time was right after DH came out. I wanted to re-read them before the last movies. I could talk forever about Harry Potter and how much it’s changed my life. I believe that everyone who reads any place I post this blog post has read it, but if you haven’t there’s something wrong with you. It’s not just a children’s book. It’s the story that defines our generation. I am a proud member of the Harry Potter Generation.

Along for the Ride – Sarah Dessen
Not my favorite Dessen book, but excellent, per usual. I love her books, I think she’s wonderful her characters, everything. This one deals with step families and love mostly. I’ve mentioned before I’m not really into the whole “Romance” genre but her books are just so well written and well developed that the “romance” side of them isn’t the most important. This book is worth reading if you like her work or that non-angsty Young Adult style.

I know a friend in a similar situation to the main character in this book. I want more than anything to save her, this book, oh this book, shows domestic violence at its worst and tells the reader that there is really nothing we, as outsiders, can do but let it run its course. The psychology and imagery in this book; just read it.

Just Listen
Sarah Dessen does something amazing when she writes. She can take subjects like rape and eating disorders and make them the main focus of a book without focusing soley on that one subject. She’s a brilliant writer. I hope to someday write a book a quarter as good as this one.

Keeping the Moon
This is a good fun book, not one of my favorites, but still just the way Sarah Dessen writes is magical. This book deals with outcasts and “weird people” and what friendship really is.

That Summer
I felt there was something missing from this book, like it could have been longer and more too it, like of like it was rushed, but not really. This was Sarah Dessen’s first novel, and it kind of shows in a way. It’s still really good, but there’s something missing for me

Someone Like You
Teen pregnancy, death,  friendship, a really, really well written book. I wish I had more to say, because it was such a lovely book, but honestly, just read it.

Lock and Key
This was the first book I read by Sarah Dessen, it deals with abandonment, family, changing schools, friendship, love, abuse. Sarah Dessen is, just… just… brilliant.

This Lullaby
The science of the break up, the falling for the guy you never wanted to. I think this is the most “romantic” of the Sarah Dessen books, personally, and I really just loved it.

The Truth about Forever
This is my favorite Sarah Dessen Novel. I can’t really put my finger on why, but if you only read on Sarah Dessen book, I recommend this one the most.

Book Blog part 1

This post is broken into 3 parts because it's 7 MS word pages long. I am posting the next one in a few hours. These posts are the "reviews" of the books I've read this year. I'm kind of horrible at reviewing, but I hope it gets you a little incite into the books, hopefully enough to pick them up if you haven't already. 

Extras – Scott Westerfeld
I read the rest of these books at the end of 2009, and I loved them. Honestly, I think this one fell a little bit short of the other ones, but I still liked it. It was nice to see what happened the Tally after the end of Specials, but I kind of wish it was left as a Trilogy.

Sloppy Firsts Second Helpings Charmed Thirds Fourth Comings Perfect Fifths - Megan McCafferty
This SERIES! The Jessica Darling Series by Megan McCafferty is BRILLIANT! I loved it. I actually drove in a blizzard to Bangor Maine to by the third book I needed to know what happened. I heard of these books through Hayley G Hoover of Youtube/fiveawesomegirls fame. From where I’m sitting, we have fairly similar tastes in books and movies and whatnot, so I figured I’d give it a whirl. They’re more adult than most books I read, but the same themes run through them, romance, friendship, school, college, losing friends, all that fun stuff. I HIGHLY recommend these books.

So Yesterday- Scott Westerfeld
This one was different for me. I really enjoy Scott Westerfeld’s writing, this book was one of my favorites by him. It’s a bit of a mystery, and kind of a short book, so a very quick read. It’s one of those books that makes you think about life a little differently after you read it. I like that in a book

Liar- Justine Larbalestier
I had high expectations for this book and it feel a little short of them. It’s a good book don’t get me wrong, I just wasn’t into the story. It’s about a murder, and a wolf, and a liar. It gets confusing sometimes, and I think if I was more my taste in books than the book itself that kind of turned me off to it.

 Night in Twister River – John Irving
I LOVE John Irving novels, I LOVE THEM. This one is no exception. I think it takes a special kind of reader to like John Irving books, so if you’re read and like Hotel New Hampshire or The World According to Garp then there is a better chance that you’ll like this one than if you don’t. It’s not really for a first time Irving reader I don’t think, because of what the story is actually about when you sit down and think about it afterward. It’s thicker, not just page wise but intensity wise, it took me over two weeks to read it, which considering how quickly I normally read is a turtles pace. It’s deep, but really, really good. I love John Irving. I could write page after page about how much I love John Irving, and this book reminded me of why I love his writing so much. 

 Scarlett Fever- Maureen Johnson
Maureen Johnson is another one of those authors that I don’t think can ever write anything I don’t like. This is the second in the Suite Scarlett series, and personally I liked it better than the first one, more Spencer, I think is the reason of that (I named my cat after Spencer Martin. I love Spencer Martin.). You need to read the first one for this to make sense, but seriously, go rent or buy or borrow all of Maureen’s books right now, and read them. SERIOUSLY.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

The 50 book challenge!

If you read this blog, you may have noticed that at the end of each post I keep a tally number of books I've read this year (in making this blog post I discovered the number was wrong, but that's not important). The point of that counting, was to complete the 50 BOOK CHALLENGE! this year, obviously, I feel 11 books sort, but I did read some amazing books this year.

I have written a blog, which is currently 7 MS word pages long talking about these books. So I'm going to post it over the next few days.

This is the list of books that I read this year: (bold means re-read)

  1. 1.      Extras – Scott Westerfeld
    2.      Sloppy Firsts- Megan McCafferty
    3.      Second Helpings
    4.       Charmed Thirds
    5.      Fourth Comings
    6.       Perfect Fifths
    7.      So Yesterday- Scott Westerfeld
    8.      Liar- Justine Larbalestier
    9.      Night in Twister River – John Irving. 
    10.   Scarlett Fever- Maureen Johnson
    11.   13 Reasons Why – Jay Asher
    12.  Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac - Gabrielle Zevin
    13.  Good in Bed - Jennifer Weiner
    14.   PS I Love You - Cecelia Ahern
    15.  Will Grayson, Will Grayson – John Green and David Levithan
    16.  Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone- JK Rowling
    17.  Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
    18.   Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
    19.  Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
    20.  Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
    21.  Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
    22.  Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
    23.  Along for the Ride – Sarah Dessen
    24.  Dreamland
    25.  Just Listen
    26.  Keeping the Moon
    27.  That Summer
    28.  Someone Like You
    29.  Lock and Key
    30.  This Lullaby
    31.  The Truth about Forever
    32.  A Prayer of Owen Meany – John Irving
    33.  If I Stay – Gayle Forman
    34.  Twenty Boy Summer – Sarah Ockler
    35.  Skinny – Ibi Kaslik
    36.  The Hunger Games – Suzanne Collins
    37.  Catching Fire
    38.  Mockingjay
    39.  The Book Thief –Markus Zusak

    Today is awesome because it's my best friend's birthday. 

Thursday, December 9, 2010

On a whim

Tonight, two of my work friends and I decided to get an apartment together.

I feel that this will probably be one of the best decisions I've made in a while. I'm so excited about it. I need to come up with nicknames for them, especially if we'll be living together, but yeah. I'm beyond excited about the possibly of living with these two girls, you have no idea.

We haven't known each other long enough for us to be three best friends living together, but we know each other well enough to know that we're slowing going to drive each other insane, but we know we'll be able to handle it. We all work similar ridiculous hours, at the same store, and we're all fairly similar, so we believe it will be wonderful and happy fun time.

I really hope it is. I really hope we actually do this. That we actually can get a moderately priced apartment and live there in harmony and happiness for a couple years or whatever.

I will totz keep you all updated, but I just wanted to finger spasm my excitement. We're going out for drinks to talk about where we want to live and prices and stuff. :D :D


Monday, November 22, 2010

I got called a Satanist today!

I just kind of have to write this down because it's so ridiculous.

Back Story!
I wear a  Slytherin scarf, it was expensive. I work in a place where things left in the break room sometimes get "lost" and I happen to work with the vindictive bitch whom I use to call the George to my Fred, so scarf is never out of my eyesight, ever.

So I have it on the back of my register whilst I work. Normally no one ever says anything, and if they do they say something like "Is that a Harry Potter Scarf?" "Oh where did you get?" or "Why aren't you a Gryffindor?"

TODAY a wonderful woman, who had three children with her, one about seventeen-ish one around nine or ten and one about three or four (in my guessing of ages) said to me: "Oh what is that symbol on your scarf?"
and I replied: "It's the symbol of the House of Slytherin in Hogwarts from Harry Potter."

The woman's face went from mildly pleasant to RAGE in seconds. She then proceeded to yell at me. She said: "I can not believe they allow you to have such a thing at your register. You are blatantly condoning Witchcraft and Sorcery and subliminally teaching my children about Satanism and devil worship. I can't believe the store would let someone like you do such a thing to unsuspecting costumers."

I, calmly as I could considering I had just been called a satanist in front of a store full of people, said: "Have you even read the Harry Potter books ma'am."

To which she replied, still steaming, in a full Walmart in the middle of the afternoon. "I don't need to read Satan's guide to Witchcraft to know what it's about, and I do not like you showing it off to my children!"

I then handed this lovely woman her slip and said "Have a great day ma'am." And she glared at me.

The man behind her almost wet himself trying not to laugh until she watched away.


Friday, November 19, 2010

I cannot believe I haven't talked of this before.

Before I start about what this is actually supposed to be written about, I just want to say that I saw Harry Potter last night and it totally blew me away. I can't get over how amazing those actors are, how well that movie was done, everything about it I loved. I mean, there were a few things I would have had added like where that weird piece of mirror that Harry keeps looking at came from, but all it all well done, best so far I think. So many tears were shed. I can't wait for part 2. Only 237 days!!

Anyway, a big part of why I went to school to see the movie is a. I wanted to see it with my friend Noelles, and 2. I hadn't seen my best friend in six months. SIX MONTHS.

I know I spend a lot of time on here complaining that I'm friendless and alone, but honestly, my friends just live so far away that I feel alone. I mean, I don't really have anyone to listen to me, besides you guys the people who live in my computer and felt the desire to read about my boring life; but I have the Harry Potter to my Ron Weasley, the Cory Matthews to my Shawn Hunter, the Sam to my Frodo.

I know that somewhere I've talked about this kid, this weird, lovable, amazing kid that came into my life my junior year of college and once told me that he couldn't wait until we because "Adult friends." There aren't really words to describe our friendship, but I was once appointed the person who kept him from talking about Pokemon during Environmental Club meetings, and trust me, this was the single most important role in the club.

How I spent the last six months, the sadness, loneliness, I point at not having him around, not being able to walk over and knock on his door and have him look at my face and tell me everything was going to be okay and hug me until I felt better. He could always make me feel better.

I could spend my life talking about how amazing he is, and how last night whilst we all sat in his living room and talked about Harry Potter and he didn't remember a fairly important character's death, he remembered on line said about how Snape could fly and argued that that character didn't die but Snape could fly for quite a while, then googled it and decided that Snape is part vampire.

I mostly wanted to say that I really don't talk about my best friend enough, and I should. Everyone should have a friend in their life who is 100% convinced that they will servive when they kick a bear in the balls simply by throwing a fish in the opposite direction.

Today is awesome because Neville Longbottom, secondary love of my life, is a BAD ASS with his 5 words in the whole movie, Rupert Grint should just win awards, and Tom Felton, TOM FELTON!!!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Dedicated to the comment Maggie left earlier

I'm not giving up writing. I still editing my other story, and the NaNo I wrote last year was un-salvageable, there was nothing there I could use to make a sensible story. The year before I got about 10k in before I quit. Writing is something I can do, NaNo isn't, it just isn't.

I've just kind of excepted that,

That I'm not going to win NaNo this year. I barely have 13k and I'm really not feeling my story. I spend hours staring at the blank word document, and I just can't move it forward. I've gone back and changed the whole thing twice already, and I just can't get it to where I can get more than 10k without getting stuck.

I know it's not about the story its about writing, but I just can't make this story work. I keep telling all my friends that are going it not to give up and just keep writing but with my stupid schedule and my lack of any creative motivation, I'm never going to reach the end. Last year I was living with a person that was competing with me. Here all I have is my parents yelling at me because I don't spend enough time downstairs and spend too much time on the computer. I can't win. Either in life or in NaNoWriMo.

So this is Deanna quiting NaNoWriMo this year, and probably forever, it was fun last year, this year it's just work and I don't need more work on my plate right now.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


*walks in slowly* *waves* *smiles awkwardly*
I know, it seems as if I've been avoiding you, or leaving you alone for far too long. I'm sorry, but it's November now, and you know what that means? You guessed it I'll be writing blogs instead of my NaNoWriMo novel! Because I'm really bad at not procrastinating.

I'm just over 2100 right now, which isn't too bad for day one. I have to keep on top of this and write extra on Tuesdays if I want to get stuff done, but I'm so easily distracted.

I could stare at that for like, two hours five minutes.

Did I tell you I've started watching Doctor Who? I think most of the people that read this blog follow me on twitter, or know me in real life, so they know, but I feel like sharing anyway. I freaking LOVE this show. I have no idea why I didn't start watching it before, I mean I was told about it when I was in high school, I should have started watching then. I'm still watching that gif btw as I'm typing. 

What has happened in my life since I last blogged. It was my birthday on Wednesday, I'm know the unimportant age of 24, I went to a concert, OH OH OH I MADE A FRIEND!!!! We go out on Thursdays! I have STANDING PLANS. You don't even know. *does I have a friend dance* And she's a nerd, and she loves Harry Potter, AND she watches Doctor Who, although she hasn't seen the any other Doctor but Matt Smith, and I'm not sure if I like him yet, but it's only been three episodes. I'm pretty sure I hate Amy though. We have plans to watch Buffy together, and and and possibly Dexter. I love having nerdy friends. My old friend, she wouldn't have done things like that with me.

I should show you my Halloween Costumes.
Marty McFly

Random Slytherin person Or Ginny Weasley if you're a person who came to the Epping Wal-Mart.

I still need my Harry Potter tickets.

Today is awesome because I found that gif. OMG.

Books Read 37.
I know I suck, still reading the Book Thief.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

I just met Kristina Horner.

Like four hours ago, seriously.

Photo graphic evidence: 

I went to the Triple Rainbow show in Boston which was at the awesomely convent time of 3 in the afternoon. I met a new person, and now we are twitter friends :) It was exciting. 

ANYWAY the show WAS AWESOME. My camera died right before ALL CAPS came on but, you know, that's my life. I did record some Jason Munday, Mike Lombardo and Alex Carpenter  and most of Snape vs. Snape I think so we do get some Luke and Kristina. I haven't uploaded it to the computer yet, just one Jason Munday song which will be posted HERE: NOTE: when you click on this the girl sitting next to me FLIPPED OUT and is SCREAMING, so adjust the volume on your computer accordingly or you won't have ear drums. JS.

I'll be posting more when I have time, which means Tuesday. 

FAVORITE quotes: Mike: At the merch table we even have Jason Munday light up swords. 
Everyone else on the tour: LIGHT SABERS!!!!!!!!

Man: So you guys know the band?
People waiting for the concert: We like to think we do.

today is awesome... hmm... let me think... today is awesome because I met one of the people that got me to write why today is awesome at the end of my blogs. AND Luke is far too attractive seriously

Books Read: 38
Currently reading: The Book Theif

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

What Deanna did today.

If I'm not pressured to blog, I tend not to, so sorry I've been neglecting you.

Today I did something really cool, but it needs a back story. Last Thanksgiving, my Dad joined what he calls a Biker gang. It's not a gang its the American Legion Military Veterans Motorcycle club. Because they are veterans organization, they are told about things that non-veterans don't know about, like when the planes are landing in the old Air Force base near my house. These planes contain men and women either going to or coming home from the wars in the Middle East.

I mentioned in my last post that a man (I guess, weird) that I went to school with, that I've known since I was seven recently came home, and that I have one friend (well, the husband of my mom's best friend's daughter) is currently in basic in Alaska, he'll be going over in April.

Today I got to see a group of men off to their deployment. The old Air Force base in Southern New Hampshire is a refueling stop for many flights heading overseas so we, the greeters have the change to say "Thank You and good luck" to the people leaving, and "Welcome Home" to those coming back.

The base here and one in Bangor ME are the only ones that welcome soldiers home, and say good bye to them. I personally, I think that's wrong. Shouldn't every airport these people who are fighting for us have someone say "Hey welcome home" no matter where they are? This isn't 1968.

Anyway, It was weird, emotional, really emotional. Shaking their hands and saying thank you for what they'll be doing for us. I guess because it's everything I never got to say to the kid from my class before he left, or when I saw him in the store.

I hope I get to do it again.


Friday, September 17, 2010

This post may make me sound insane.

But how many of my posts make me look not insane? Answer: zero.

Note: this blog may contain Harry Potter Spoilers, so if you don't want to be Spoiled, don't read on.

I was reading the other day, most like on Wikipedia, or some other such credible source, that wizard children aren't required to go to muggle school previous to attending Hogwarts. I've always kind of wondered about this. Mostly because of how Mr. Weasley acts and how pure blooded wizards seem so out of the loop when it comes to muggle things.

Because I'm Deanna, I was thinking about this, and about how my future children with Fred Weasley (*cough* I'm not insane *cough*) or, you know other wizard children, would be raised.

In reading Harry Potter, and mostly seeing Mr. Weasley, I think it may be important for children of wizarding families to have some kind of muggle education. It's up to grade 5 or 6 I believe. I think that it would be good for wizard children to know the basics of the muggle world. I mean, there isn't much purely wizarding world left, really. Well that we know of in 1998. Only certain towns (right?) so most likely wizard children are going to grow up around muggles. Wouldn't it be a good idea to let wizard children and muggle children learn the basics together, then went school starts to get harder and more specialized then you send your kid to Hogwarts, or whatever.

I love Mr. Weasley, but I don't want my children to be like him, you know, all fascinated with the muggle world because they never got to live in it or explore it.

Wow, I'm completely insane.

Today is awesome because sometime next week there is going to be a SKYPE PARTY!!

Books read 38
Last Finished- MockingJay.
If you haven't read it READ IT

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I work in retail. just murder me with a spoon.

Unlike every other blog post I've ever written, this one is going to be filled with angst and hatred toward things. (please read the previous statement in the most sarcastic tone you can.)

As the title suggests, or you know, I work in retail, at a fun little place called Wal-Mart. I've worked at several other retail stores in my day, Barnes an Noble, Kohls, K-Mart, a small grocery chain, and basically this has made me hate people.

Wal-Mart has given me new people to hate.

Living in this part of the Shire, I've never really been fond of the students at a particular prestigious high school near by; mostly because they like to run in front of on coming traffic and think the world owes them because they're smart. I've yet to meet a person, that isn't fictional, who attended that school who isn't a totally fucking fuck.

Its like they've never been in a store before. I had one girl today that literally filled all my bags and had stuff on top of the turn-y thing, AND a poster leaning up against my register, AND a fucking pole. There were people behind her in line. AND SHE JUST STOOD THERE TALKING TO PEOPLE.

I said "Excuse me, but can you please take some of your bags so I can ring in my next order. I don't have any room."

And she said "Hold on a sec, I'm busy." then continued to talk to her friend, then turned around and said "Oh are you waiting for me *giggle*" and then I stabbed her 47 times in the face.

That last part may not be true, because I would have been fired.

ALSO a lady told me that I "don't look like the kind of person that passes up pie."
Thanks for calling me fat old woman, thanks.

I hate my job. I hate it SO hard.

But my shirt should be here soon and I get paid tomorrow so I can buy new shoes.

But, I did see a guy from my class who was over seas, whom I didn't know was home. It was from a distance, but it was nice to know he was home, and gets to be with his wife and daughters. I don't think he was home for the birth of either of his children. We need to bring one more home and then I can start watching the news again.

Today is awesome because I know Chris is home, and really, that's be best thing I've heard in a long time.

books read 37
currently reading: Mockingjay.

Monday, September 6, 2010



Did you miss me? Probably not, but I missed you guys. :)

Since I've "gone" I found some new blogging friends on tumblr, but, SERIOUSLY, not as awesome as you guys. I love you guys.

What have I done this last week? Oh yeah, I worked. OH and got PAID. *weird high pitched voice* MONEY. I have on the way to me a nice green StarKid t-shirt.

I am also going to the Triple Rainbow show in Boston  Oct 9th. Uberly excited.

I also have a friend! I think I talked about here toward the end of BEDA but I have a real life friend. Someone who I didn't go to school with who can't make fun of me for being weird because she doesn't even KNOW about the weird yet. Poor her... We're going out tomorrow night. I'm excited. I haven't gone out to a bar, umm, ever? Yeah ever. I'm 23 btwz.

Quick story: Spent my 21st birthday, which was a Saturday, in Salem MA standing next to the memorial for Giles Corey, telling people about him. *cough* uber lame English nerd *cough* Giles Corey is my HERO. If anyone deserves HERO WORSHIP, it's Giles Corey.

In other things, my High School English Teacher has a play coming out in two weeks. More on this later when I actually know more about it. All I really know is that there are robots. He keeps tweeting about Robots.

I think this is where we part of the evening. I'm far too tired for 9:30 at night.

today is awesome because I own a purple dress.

books read: 37

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I don't want to see you go

But it's not forever, not forever, and even if it was, you know that I would never let it get me down, cuz your a part of me that makes me better where ever I go. So I will try, not to cry, No one needs to say goodbye. - Days of Summer Team StarKid

I'm really sad that BEDA is over, that this is the last BEDA post of the year. I've said to before, and I have no problem repeating myself when it comes to this, I've really enjoyed reading and commenting and getting to know all of you. It made me feel like I was really a part of something. I haven't felt like I was a part of something in a long time. So thank you, everyone that read my angst filled annoying blog for the past month. Thanks for commenting and listening.

I don't really think I can explain how much it means to know that no matter how ridiculous a post I write, someone will read and comment on it. I'm in that weird part of my life, as I've said before, where I just feel so alone and lost sometimes. To know that someone is there to listen, no matter how stupid that thing I have to say is, really, really means a lot. Thank you guys, I can't really put into words how much I just want to hug all of you.

This is my facebook page if you want to be my friend on there:

I think, I'm probably wrong, but I can think whatever I want, that doing this, being here with you guys has made me a better blogger. I don't feel stupid posting some random thing about how all I did all day was sit around and eat ice cream feeling sorry for myself. I've learned that I have to get out and do something so I can report on it, and honestly, if BEDA didn't turn out to be as awesome as it did, I wouldn't have that mindset. Finding and having adventures saying "Yeah sure I'd love to" when someone asks me to hang out, is something that you guys gave me back. I can't explain how much that means. Thanks for helping me get my life back.

In this month, I've gotten a job and accepted friendship, two of the things that I've been hoping and praying for for almost a year. I love you guys. I really do. Thank you so much for being there.

I'm excited to continue to read your lives and see our next big adventure (NaNoWriMo? Epic Skype party?) But mostly I wish you all well, and I hope that you got a much out of this as I did.

ALSO: In yesterday's post, I said my Skype name was "Decoolz" it's actually "Decoolz27" I'm sure there are hundreds of other Decoolz on Skype, but you know, I should probably tell you that I don't know what I own name is.

Today is awesome because I've finished packing for Hogwarts!

Books read 37

Monday, August 30, 2010

I am a follower

Everyone else is doing this, so I'm going to as well. I'm really going to miss this everyday blogging. I've had a lot of fun with it. I've enjoyed everyone's blogs and "meeting" new people who I can relate to. You guys have been really awesome, really. Thanks for being interested in my boring angst filled annoying life. I'm kind of sad that tomorrow is the last day. :(

So now some Triva!

Name: Deanna
Age: 23 *cough*old person *cough*

Location: New Hampshire or The Shire if you're awesome, which I am, so The Shire

School: Hogwarts School of Witch Craft and Wizardry. (also known as I have graduated from college and now I never have to go to school again.)

Major: I was an English communications major, which is why I currently live with my parents and work at Walmart

Job: Cashier at Walmart, because I DREAM BIG
Current Book: Skinny by Ibi Kaslisk but Thursday MockingJay!

Instrument: my Instrument is MS word or a Pencil


Hungry: No

Clean: pretty much, I mean I spent the day at WalMart, so I'm covered in Walmart germs, but I showered today

Sick: No, but now I will be that I said I wasn't
Bored: always
Going to miss BEDA: VERY MUCH

Skype Name: decoolz

NaNoWriMo Account: decoolz (also my twitter name, and my tumblr name and my actual name... because I'm creative)

Should everyone add you?: SURE!

Will the Skype party be epic: I feel that it would be. We're pretty awesome, us BEDA-ers

Are you happier now: Yes! Yes I am

Will you type out a thoughtful blog more often: I will write twice a week after Tuesday. I promise
Even AFTER August: I promise

I love You!: Aww. I love you too, BEDA, Lord Voldemort, Neville, cookie dough Ice Cream, and Jake Ryan! *cough* and Michael J. Fox *cough*

I'm really going to miss this. I really am. *cries*

Today is awesome because I recently made plans to sit in my friend Kevin's train car on the way to Hogwarts on Wednesday.

Mentioned the books already in this entry, so yea.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Let's do this

I had a plan for this blog, but then I read Kristina's blog today, and I want to copy her. So I'm going to.

I was working today, and this woman and her daughter (aged 5 or 6ish) came through my line, the girl was being kind of whiny and childlike, not overly annoying, but annoying enough. The girl was asking to hold things and stuff and I could tell that the mom was getting really annoyed. This behavior had been going on for most of the store, I guess. The mom was trying to punch in her PIN and the girl started to pull on the ladies coat, and saying "Mommy, I want to press the buttons!" The mother looked down at the little girl and said "Oh My God, Hermione, shut up." The little girl crossed her arms over her chest and pouted.

I almost wet myself and bit the inside of my mouth until it started to bleed, to keep myself from laughing.

The most important part of that story is that there are 5 and 6 year old children in the world named Hermione; and although she may not be named after the character in Harry Potter, I'm just going to assume she is. I hope one day that girl grows up to be the cleverest witch of her age. And that woman, most likely un-knowingly, since she was, like 35, gets to make AVPM references all day, everyday.

Back to copying Kristina Horner:
She wrote about her life 10 years ago. In December, everyone on twitter was talking about what they were like in the year 2000 I sent couple tweets that looked a lot like this: #10yearsago I was 13, had a huge crush on that Lab Tech on CSI, Greg, Fave Song was Pin Ball Wizard by The Who, I had a freakishly large Zac Hanson poster and my favorite movie was Back To The Future, and I couldn't WAIT for Order of the Phoenix
I then sent out a tweet that went something like this: As apposed to know, were Greg is no longer in the Lab, but a real CSI, my Hanson poster contains all three brothers and all the Harry Potter books have been released.  #ImthesamepersonIwaswhenIwas13.

I remember reading the tweets of the people I get to my phone, as we weren't cool enough to have Internet in the apartment. A lot of people were saying things like "Ten years ago I was deciding if I wanted to be in television or become a teacher." (became a teacher, if you were wondering) or "ten years ago I was a cheerleader, now I want to kill all cheerleaders"

I bring this up, because looking back at my life, my interests haven't changed very much. However, I don't think that 13 year old Deanna would like 23 year old Deanna, I also think 13 year old Deanna would call me a nerd and probably kick me, because 13 year old Deanna was a bitch, she was also a nerd, but intolerant of other nerds, because she was the BEST nerd EVER.

I've always been a nerd, and I wore my nerd with pride, unashamed that I was weirder than anyone that had ever existed. (I've decided that this is a fact.) My post it note days were only a year away, but I did carry around little boxes for key chains that played music (Oh the nineties)  I had a B*Witched one and a SClub 7 one is I remember correctly. I also got them taken away a lot, because they would go off at random times. I carried unnecessary things and had a posters of both Michael J Fox and Zac Hanson in my locker.

I was not yet friends with the girl that would lead to my belief that being weird and strange was a bad thing, so I was just out there being me and not caring about it. I kind of miss that kid. My backward baseball cap days. I have a picture of 13 year old me, I'm at a formal, so no hat but here:
I'm the one with the glasses, the other girl is Queen Elizabeth I (inside jokes)
I look exactly the same, well i got new glasses, and I have braces in that picture, but I look exactly the same.

In her blog Kristina talked about how different she was as a young teen, and we're for the purposes of this blog, the same age (I'm a year older than her IRL). I just can't help looking at myself and seeing an nearly identical person. Everyone around me figured I'd grow out of the "Harry Potter thing" I always figured my weird obsession with MJF would eventually fade, but there is now "growing out of Harry Potter" and from where I sit, I can see hanging in my closet this outfit:

without MJF in it, obvs.
Thinking about how we're supposed to "grow up" and change and evolve as people, and seeing that I still love the same things just as passionately, if not MORE passionately than I did when I was 13 makes me wonder if I something is wrong with me. Or maybe there is just something so great about the things I loved when I was a kid, that I never should let go of it.

I don't know, what do you guys think?

Today is awesome because, well, mostly because the inside of my face still hurts from that child being told to shut up.

Books Read 36
Currently have 4 chapters left of Skinny by Ibi Kalisk (I'm usually a much faster reader.)